The Twelve Steps as first spelled out in the book Alcoholics Anonymous is, like any work of genius, inspiration and spirituality, a paradox.
Here we have a finite number of simple concepts that offer an infinite amount of wisdom and practicality. None of that enlightenment is accessible, however, to one who is not willing to mount the First step. And it is that very step (perhaps with the exception of the Second) that provides the greatest barrier to many trying to get started in recovery.
1. We admitted we were powerless over [whatever] - that our lives had become unmanageable.
Balderdash! Fie upon it! Every day, thousands of struggling addicts try to pummel this step into oblivion.
“Powerless? Me? Bullshit. I have power as a unique human being, as a citizen, as a creation of God [or of Nature or whatever]. How can I even begin to fight this addiction if I am powerless? It is on its face a falsehood.”
I get it. The last thing you want to hear when you trying to rev up for what may be the greatest fight of your life is that you don’t have what it takes. And it is in that very contradiction that the truth of the First Step shines.